The Penis Dialogues...

So Barbara and I have this awesome idea we discussed today at UNC (11-17-09). Along w/Sean, a grad student (artist), we want to write a book, and have a tour ala Comedy Central, to share our experience, and women's in general, of men and our relation-ship to and with them.

After many laughs and crude, but authentic observations about men (we do love them), we think we have a viable idea which would be provocative and humorous. We want to laugh w/them, not at them. The basic premise is to understand men better w/all their idiosyncracies and piccadilloes.

As most men have an intimate relationship w/themselves :o) , let's start there. Basically I think men are more mushy and sensitive than women internally speaking. It doesn't take much to get a man's dander up, among other things, and women are forever trying to understand where they're coming from. Often they don't know if they're coming or going...mostly coming.

I'm just free-thinking right now as my brain is in the process of embracing this subject. I think Barbara, that we should have a tape recorder going when we're talking and laughing as that seems to be our most fertile time of bringing forth funny thoughts and ideas of what will hopefully be fodder or material for our act/book.

You are truly a funny, wonderful woman and I love laughing and talking w/you. As I said, you bring out this silly, goofy side of me, which I enjoy. I look forward to talking soon ~ Mary :o)

Looking forward to the future...

Since asking my husband for a divorce after 22 yrs of being together (20 married), life is feeling freed up w/possibilities galore. It's scary at times, like wearing a pair of ice skates and learning to strengthen your ankles, as I've never been much of an ice skater. Bear w/me, this is my first official blog, so I want to get the creative juices flowing. And flow they must...

This has been a year of letting go, of my maxi-van, which was a great reminder of family trips, which are few these days, 30# of weight, which feels so much lighter, ideas or expectations of people (this one's a toughie), and friends, who were more 'couple' friends. Now this should be interesting to observe as it unfolds, or should I say, I unfold and evolve. People have come and gone in my life over the years and the ones that are true friends are still here, no matter the circumstances.

It's a bit bittersweet at times thinking that I'm letting go of the man that I've been through life w/the past 20+ years. He's the father of my beautiful children, for which I'm eternally grateful, and has made me laugh and cry, usually over his silly antics and goofy theatrics. He's like an old shoe, and I mean that in the positive sense. A person I've been totally comfortable with who has allowed me to show all sides w/o judgment. Now you're asking, why then am I leaving this relationship? My friends and family understand the reasons, which I will refrain from mentioning.

Relationships need tending, like a garden, and weeds tend to thrive and crowd out the flowers if you're not aware. What came to mind the other day was the word, 'landmines'...which if not detonated or taken care of, erode the foundation and create a loss of trust, among other things. I think in any relationship, there are these situations that potentially can make or break a relationship. I realized at the moment when they were happening and thought, 'this too shall pass', but did not always take time to work through them. And then there are the intractable habits of people who consciously or unconsciously do not want to change. And therein lies the dilemma... I'm in the process of change and growth and w/someone who likes the status quo and the familiarity and comfort of the old ways. I can only go forward and continue to blossom into this wonderful woman who is realizing her purpose in life and living it daily. So that's it in a nutshell folks...more to come.